My friend, George Vinson, {who recently guest posted here} wrote a song several years ago that has become one of my favorites. It’s fascinating to me how lyrics can mean something to the writer, but something totally different to the listener. I know and appreciate the story behind I Will Trust In You, but when I apply the lyrics to my life, they fit just as well:
When I am alone
I will trust in you
When all hope seems gone
I will trust in you
When I am afraid
I will trust in you
And I can’t find my way
I will trust in you
It’s you I trust
Your word I praise
I will not be afraid
When I am alone
I will trust in you
When I am ashamed
I will trust in you
When I am to blame
I will trust in you
When I am confused
I will trust in you
And I can’t seem to choose
I will trust in you
It’s you I trust
Your word I praise
I will not be ashamed
When I am afraid
I will trust in you
When I am alone…
I will trust in you…
The words that pierce my heart and bring tears to my eyes almost every time are:
When I am ashamed…
When I am to blame…
When I am confused…
And I can’t seem to choose…
Those are the places I lived for so long…confusion, blame, shame, not knowing what choice to make. The difference between the story of my past and the lyrics to this song is that I didn’t trust God. I thought I knew best, and by the time I realized I didn’t, I was afraid to trust Him. I was afraid He was angry with me, and ultimately, no longer loved me. I thought His love for me was based on my performance. I didn’t trust in Jesus’ completed work.
For so long, I couldn’t say, I will not be ashamed.
I’ve been learning that even when I am to blame, even when I am ashamed, He still loves me. He’s still faithful. He’s still trustworthy. Even when I am confused, I can trust He sees clearly. Even when I can’t seem to choose, I can trust that His plans will be fulfilled.
No matter the circumstances, may my story {and yours} now and forever be…
I will trust in you.
**George recently shared his story and song at Hunter Street Baptist Church. You can watch it here.
