One thing won’t change
Your love remains
— from “Love Remains”
It’s been a little over six months since I selected my One Word for 2013: change. Or was it the other way around? I think maybe it chose me…because, really, I’m rarely going to choose change unless it’s forced upon me.
So much seems the same, yet so much has changed in six months.
When I initially wrote about change, I was thinking more about changes in my blog and music. But, in fact, there have been few changes in those. The changes have occurred in the area where change seems to be the theme of my life: relationships.
God has brought some amazing people into my life since January. I rarely believe anything that happens in life is a coincidence, so I’m thankful that they listened to the divine whisper that led them my way. These are the kinds of people who pray for me, as well as challenge and encourage me.
On the flip side, God is removing some people from my life. I clearly struggle with this because it makes my abandonment issues rise to the surface, not to mention, these are people I’d prefer to have in my life. My husband tells me this is a refining process. I say, I’m tired of being refined, thank you very much.
Then there are relationships that are being renewed. Some current relationships are undergoing changes for the better. I’m also reconnecting with people I haven’t seen in years.
All in all, my relationships is the one area of my life where I didn’t want change. Yet, it’s the one area where change is inevitable.
Strange how all these changes in relationships produce such changes in me. And I’m left with a choice: to accept the changes and live in peace, or not.
I have no idea what the next six months will hold. I’d like to believe several relationships will be restored. And I’d like to think there will be changes for the better in my writing and music. But I’m a little leery of hoping too much.
